Selena Gomez is calling her past relationship with Justin Bieber “the best thing” that has ever happened to her. In her new documentary, My Mind & Me, which was released on Apple TV+ today (November 4), the 30-year-old singer and actress opened up about the end of her eight-year relationship with Bieber in 2018.
While discussing her hit 2020 song, “Lose You to Love Me,” Gomez revealed that she reached out to songwriters Julia Michaels and Justin Tranter with the hope of writing a song that would explain all her emotions. “‘I think I’m ready to just say I’m sad,'” she texted the two. “We wrote the song in 45 minutes. The fastest song I’ve ever written.” She continued, “It’s about more than a lost love. It’s me learning to choose myself, to choose life, but also hoping that people can find grace and peace in that too. The song is about knowing that you completely lost every part of who you are just to rediscover yourself again.”
Gomez’s on-again, off-again relationship with the “Sorry” singer spanned from 2012 to 2018. Shortly after their split, Bieber married Hailey Baldwin. For the Only Murders In The Building star, being in the public eye made the split harder to deal with. “I felt haunted by a past relationship that no one wanted to let go of,” Selena said. “Then I just moved past it, and I wasn’t afraid anymore.”
“I feel like I had to go through the worst possible heartbreak ever and then just forgetting everything at the drop of the hand, it was really confusing,” she reflected in the doc. “But I just think that needed to happen and ultimately it was the best thing that ever happened to me.”
Although Gomez doesn’t go into major detail about her relationship with the pop star in the documentary, she does express how she felt tired of the constant connection to Bieber. Elsewhere in the documentary, Gomez broke down in tears during rehearsals for her 2016 Revival tour after the head of her record label, John Janick, asked her to do a song with Bieber.
“I don’t know what John thinks, I want to talk to John. I don’t want to disappoint John. I don’t want him to think that he signed some f—ing Disney kid,” she said through tears. “It just sucks too, because the whole song thing. He called me this morning about the song with Justin, like, when am I just going to be good enough by myself? When am I gonna be good just by myself, not needed anybody to be associated with?”
As we previously reported, Gomez posed with Hailey for a sweet picture together at the Academy Museum Gala in Los Angeles last month, putting the longstanding feud rumors between the two to rest.